I see you out there girl as you try to wake up to your alarm and hit snooze another time. You want to go workout before work, but not today. Ugh, you’re thinking…I can work out tomorrow…can it really be time to get up already?
I see you as you get ready for work and pass by the mirror, needing to look into it but afraid of the reflection you’ll see. Thinking….How have I gotten to this point?
I see you as you struggle to pick out an outfit for the day, trying on this…trying on that…looking for something that is flattering and comfortable, but it’s hard to feel comfortable in clothes when you’re not comfortable in your own skin. Thinking…oh well, guess this is how it’s supposed to be.
I see you look around in your kitchen and decide to skip breakfast because “you’re not that hungry anyways” and you tell yourself you don’t want the calories. Thinking…I’ll be good today.
I see you on your morning commute stop for your morning cup of Joe because you don’t have any energy. Instead of black coffee, you choose the extra large, Grande, mocha swirl latte with the whipped cream on top. Thinking…I deserve this treat and “it’s only a coffee, it’s not food”.
I see you girl, as you arrive at work tired of being underappreciated, underpaid, overworked, unsatisfied, and tired of the daily grind just to get by. Thinking…seriously, do I really have to punch in my time and ask permission to take a day off like I’m a child?
I see you stressed when you realize you are hungry and didn’t plan ahead or bring anything to eat for lunch. Thinking…I’ll run through the drive thru, how bad can it be? I don’t have time to eat healthier.
I see you excited when you leave work for the day. You hop in and play your favorite playlist on the drive home. You’re singing along, the sun is shining, you’re moving to the beat and soaking it all in. You feel JOY possibly for the first time today. Thinking…yes, I’m off and I get to see my family and do what I want!
I see you when you arrive home and realize there’s a pile of dishes, dinner to cook, homework to navigate, laundry to contend with and BTW, you’re the taxi driver. Girl, you were so excited but now you’re in glue-mode. Thinking…I have to do my job and keep it all together for everyone else, they need me so there’s no time for me time now.
I see you girl, going to drop off and pick up kiddos at the multiple activities. You put on a big smile and you talk small talk with the others doing the same thing you’re doing. You’re not really happy, but you can pretend for the time being. Thinking…someday I’ll REALLY be happy, someday I’ll make myself a priority….someday…
I see you once you settle in to the evening…you had high hopes for this day. Right now, though you’re simply exhausted and undernourished…mentally, physically, financially and emotionally. So instead of going on a walk, playing with your family, sitting outside to enjoy the sunset, reading a good book…you collapse and mindlessly lose yourself in the lives of others scrolling through Facebook, Pinterest, Instagram…whatever is the latest technology. Thinking…maybe tomorrow will be different.
I see you girl, I know your story. You ARE me…at least who I used to be.
If you’re now thinking…I no longer want this to be my story, I’m here for you and I can help.